“I have no shepherd. No one cares for me, looks out for me, protects me, leads me. I experience a continual sense of need. Nothing’s ever quite right. I’m always restless, and easily frustrated and often disappointed. I stagger through deserts. I feel parched with thirst.
My soul feels broken, twisted, and stuck. I can’t fix myself. I stumble down dark paths. Still, I insist, I want to do what I want, when I want, how I want. Life’s confusing, I don’t know why things never really work out. I’m haunted by emptiness and futility – shadows of death.
I fear the big hurt and final loss. Death waits for me at the end of every road, But I’d rather not talk about that. I spend my life protecting myself. I fear bad things that could happen. I find no lasting comfort.
I’m alone….facing everything that could hurt me. Other people use me for their own ends. No one is really with me. No one has my back. No one is really for me – except me. And I’m so much all about ME, sometimes it’s sickening. I belong to no one except myself. My cup is empty
Trouble, disappointment and loss hunt me down all the days of my life.
I’ll be alone forever, homeless, free-falling into void. Or maybe I’ll be obliterated. Sartre said, “Hell is other people.” I have to add, “Hell is myself”. Then I die. ”
Contrast that with this:
“1 The Lord is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
2 He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
3 He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name’s sake.
4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord
Isn’t our God good?